Time to have my yearly reflection on life?! It’s part way between my birthday and my “getting sick anniversary” and I can never remember what day I use to recap the year but now seems as good a time as any!
I have been back in work for over a year now, I’m part time, I seem to have my shifts sorted, and I am doing great! I love being back, I love being surrounded by my friends, I love being back in the place I am most comfortable. I love being able to be myself. I love being able to do a job I consider a huge privilege (most days!) and on the odd day I love being able to moan about the stresses that come with my job. Everyone has bad days, and I love being in work to get them.
I haven’t quite hit my last years record of 10 months hospital free, but I did make it 7 months, so thats a win in my book! I look back at every time I say “this time will be my last” and I sigh at my optimism…I know one admission will eventually be my last and I will get through all of this, but hey, lets be realistic! I’m going to aim to beat my 7 month streak this year. It can be done, I’m not jinxing myself, but I’ll see where I am this time next year!
I was a little disappointed this last month that I wasn’t able to go for treatment I was referred for. I was hoping I would be able to get botox in my vocal cords in June, but things weren’t meant to be and my referral didn’t go through in time for that plan to go ahead. I do have a follow up appointment in August at Preston and then another appointment in Liverpool not long after that so I will see what will come of those and what my treatment plan and goals are for the coming months.
The last 12 months have been great fun. I haven’t had quite the amount of adventures as I did the year I was off work, but I’ve made sure I’ve enjoyed myself! I travelled to the south of France recently with friends and burnt myself to a crisp in one day! I laughed so much in 3 days. Roll on the next holiday! I finally went back to the caravan to relax! I won my first game of Catan against the mother and brother. I went to Harry Potter studios twice! Once with my nephew Oliver and then with my niece Charlotte. I’ve taken tonnes of photos and know I’ll be taking a tonne more in the next 12 months! I turned 30! I have been to the theatre, I had afternoon tea! I baked cakes, and smashed cakes. I experienced single parenthood of 4 children for 4 days while my sister and brother in law went to Jamaica! I’m not cut out for 4 kids! I bought my first new car! I tried my hand at making churros…I’m not so good at it!
We’ve had hard times too as a family, we lost my Nan last year and also Adam. It’s been hard on us as a family, but it has brought us closer together, and strengthened our love and support for each other. We have learned who we can rely on, and learned not to take anything for granted. I’m more willing to live in the moment in life now, to take chances and not have regrets, to make memories with my family, to take more pictures of people I love. Every year has its good times and bad, the last year was probably one of the hardest I’ve faced, and I know that there will be more hard times in the future. But one thing is for sure, I am loved, I have friends and family around me who I love more than anything, and I will keep making memories and having adventures with them.
Here’s to the next 12 months of life. I hope it is full of love, family and friends. Because at the end of the day, that’s what matters most.